Holiday Haze

Twinkling lights, a festive glow,

Laughter swirled like falling snow.

I clinked my glass, then one more too,

Embracing cheer—and maybe you.

But what began as merry and bright

Slipped too quickly into the night.

The alcohol poured free, my tongue unchained,

A spectacle I can’t explain.

Your laugh, your smile, they lit the room,

A spark that cut December’s gloom.

But I was clumsy, loud, unguarded,

A storm of words, my charm discarded.

I danced too wild, I laughed too shrill,

Tumbled down a slippery hill.

Blurry moments, slurred confessions,

Spinning in regret's obsessions.

The morning came, sharp and clear,

Memories fractured, soaked in fear.

Did I sway too close? Did I stumble away?

Did you see me as I wished? Or did I betray?

Oh, how I long to rewind the clock,

To silence words, to still the talk.

To sip, not drown, in courage's drink,

To charm you better, to stop and think.

But now the echoes haunt my mind,

Of festive folly, of moments unkind.

The shame bites hard; I wish to flee,

From the girl I was, from what you see.

And yet, perhaps, the night was flawed,

But I’m more than drunken applause.

If chance allows, I’d like to show

The side of me you didn’t know.

~RMC